New Blog

New blog, Kelvin Quee, is created using Wordpress 1.5.

This is to be sure google will spider my new blog. Google has a preference for blogs using blogger. Yeah, sure, this's a cheat. Shhhsh.

A Link to My Past

In retrospect.

Learning...

Learning Bioinformatics is now
Learning.

Ok, maybe I should make it more obvious. I've a new blog, Learning Bioinformatics. Pay tribute!

I don't think I will be updating this blog, kelvinquee, any time soon.

Last Night

Last night, for the first time in a very long time, I had the most engaging
conversation. It was honest and the most involved, effortlessly.

Even though we hadn't talk about anything really close to our hearts, intimate thoughts or hidden emotions, it proved to be surprisingly therapeutic.

And, yet, I was oblivious to her, until last night.

Backtrack

Here's to keep track:

1) Am one lesson away from completing my driving course.
2) NTU (Nanyang Technological University) just sent me a letter saying that I've been reserved a place in the School of Biological Sciences.
3) Currently trying to understand Python.

1

My lesson begun in June so it has been dragging on for somewhat like 3 months. It's getting a bit tiring to say the least. It's almost culminating into a torment. I can't wait to get my license. I know everyone says that but I say that I've put in more effort than the average learner. Shuttling between my camp in Sungei Gedong (which is like 10km away from ANYWHERE else) and Yio Chu Kang where my driving school is is very painful.

I often had to attend the last lesson of the day, and very much often due to the enervating work earlier in the day and the long hours of traveling, I'm left with the last bit of energy to push through the lessons.I doubt if I was even half-conscious while driving.

I can't say why I didn't manage to crash into a lamp post.

2

I faxed NTU's Office of Admission a letter like 2 weeks ago. A real rush-ed out letter. I didn't even expect them to reply especially when I didn't give them the right mailing address, a convincing reason (I just wrote that I found "a direct entry into SBS more relevant") or even sign off (I forgot).

But anyway I now have a place.

3

I never had a flair for programming. If I have one, I never discovered it. Now I shall.

Python seemed like the perfect language. More so when it's relevant to bioinformatics.

I just want to make it in life. At least get something done. I don't know what it is. It seems to be that I want to do the best, especially in my studies. A first-class honours. Then next I'll pursue other greater things in life.

It's tough, I know. But it's tougher when you are stuck in National Service, doing close to nothing. It's tougher to do nothing in life.

In life.

Life.

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So much had happened...

Looking back, it all seemed like... what? Flashes of translucent imagery, half-real, half-unreal, as though they have never happened. But it's hard not to face up to it, to reality, to history. They happened.

And I'm feeling all these, simply because I had lived it mindlessly, without goals, without an aim, even though I’m busy like almost every week since my last few posts. Busy, but busy with what, with what?

Nothing. Practically nothing besides driving lessons and some basic, essential research. on the internet. The rest of my time is spent exercising and attending events with my friends. And because of that, the guilt from not spending my time productively would slowly teem out and swallow my mind.

In fact, the feeling is even greater now, right NOW, when I had spent the entire of yesterday basically sleeping my time away, even though it had felt great, even though it did curb my acne condition.

I want to do SOMETHING. I want to do SOMETHING. I want to do SOMETHING.

Go figure the first line.